Crossing the line.

For some outlandish reason, i'm not so fond of you anymore. You're a changed person whether you think so or not. I'm not the only person who sees through that exterior of yours. But the sad thing is, i think your interior is just the same. Not everything is about you. I truely hope you come to your senses and realize that soon.

A change in our motions.

I'm something plain. Unremarkable. I used to be this burning flame, I was so much a person to you. You've carelessly blown me out. Despite things I've told you like, "No matter what happens, I'll always be there" and, "When nobody is by your side, I'll still be there." I don't think I mean that anymore. And to my surprise, I don't feel guilty. I'm sorry for the sad little person you are and, i'm happy for me. For once in a really long time, i feel good, really good. You can keep the love and kindness i've given you but, you can't have anymore.

We are all afraid to talk about what stares at us from the dark.- Wintergirls.

Muffin maybe, this world is going crazy.

I'm going to hang my moon in my sky on my time. Just wait for it.

Fate can only take you so far.

I think i've made up my mind. I need myself a clean slate from you. I feel like i should be upset when in reality, that heavy weight you've placed on my everything has been simply lifted off. We have been dragging "this" for far too long, and it's time for me to be. You've anchored me down and i've been pulling OUR weight for three years. My time and energy has run dry and i'm going to finally accept that fate can only take you so far. I'm done with wishful thinking. We will never see eye to eye and it's finally time for you to step off your high horse.

I fall flat on my face.

Why is it that when we talk everything comes down to me being the better person, the understanding one, the unselfish one, the one who makes the right decisions, the one who will stand by you when no one else will. Yet when you wrong, i still, not wanting to, fall in. It's the type of fall where you don't know if there will be something on the bottom to catch you. I've always been the, well, "catcher." This time, whenever it is, want to be catched. I'm not a needy person but i like the reassurance. I would like to be told that everything will be okay. That i shouldn't be afraid to give in. That no matter what mistakes i make, i'll still be there. I've heard it all before, but i want to hear the promising voice behind the words. Someone who can tell me that i have no reason to hesitate.

I'm happy you've found the words.

You've been waiting for the day where the words would come out right, and you could finally explain what's been weighing down on that sinking heart. I'm especially happy just because we think the same and, i didn't have the brain to make the words come out right. It was a relief. So, thank you.

Hot fever.

My trip to San Francisco was bitter sweet. I'll be seeing you soon Jake. My brother told me that it was my kind of city and, he was right. Getting sick on my trip was lovely too. I feel useless. I couldn't stop thinking about the drunk conversation you had with my brother on my front porch. I was shaking with anxious nerves. Now, I'm laying on my couch with a fever. Fantastic.