Clothing store girl.

I ran into you today, I was definitely not ready for that. We made small talk as if we were strangers; forced to say some words that we would probably forget the next day. I know I won't forget because you've been on my mind lately. I wanted so bad to know what's been going on in your busy life, how you're feeling, and what new and exciting things you've done in the months i haven't seen you. I felt like an insignificant person to you today. I wish. I secretly wish you cared to know how I've been. Just because a person asks how you're doing doesn't always mean they say it to really know what's been going on in your broken little life, but because it's usually something polite to ask when you haven't seen someone in awhile. That's how it was today, and organized, timed, meaningless array of questions. I'm sad i mean nothing to you now. I was someone you once loved so much. I'm not angry that you don't love me anymore, all I ask is that you care for me still. That's all.

Seasons have changed.

What happened to you? I ask myself why people change. Some of the people who used to be so important to me changed in a bad way. I'm not sure I like you the way I used to. You're different, I don't like it. I guess I can't be angry because maybe you weren't meant to be in my life. That's fine with me. I want good people, loving people, kind people in my life.

P.S I do miss you though. The old you.

P.P.S I also miss you, I wonder why we're not friends anymore. How strange that someone who was once your everything is now nothing to you.

Way down here, it's cold.

I've been so negative about happiness lately. My head has been stuck in the sand. Constantly looking for something that will warm you up inside makes you feel unhappy, tired, and unlucky. I realized that if i just sit down, i mean really just step back for real, and watch the world around me go by something good will come beside me. Sometimes you need to take risks to help you feel something good. I want to take risks.

10,000 miles

I know it may not be such a big deal yet, only stage one, but i can be scared if i want to. Watch over her please, please, please. She means the whole entire world to me.

Deep, deep, deeper.

1.It's just alright, for now. It makes me feel somewhat content.

2.I miss the old you so very much, what happened to the girl who could always put a smile on my face, the girl who made me feel safe in a friendship, where have you gone?

3.Go on go on.... you don't fool anyone you silly little girl. Fake, fake, fake.